tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25554877449765805282024-03-13T05:25:02.893-07:00Orthodoxy and RecoveryA blog about the direct connection between the spirituality of Orthodox Christianity and recovery from alcoholism, drug abuse, and other addictions.Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger512125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555487744976580528.post-15340477549708175312022-05-12T02:35:00.000-07:002022-05-12T02:35:24.719-07:00The Eye<p><i><span style="font-family: verdana;"> "<span class="text Matt-6-22" style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">The eye is the lamp of the body. So, if your eye is sound, your whole body will be full of light; </span><span class="text Matt-6-23" id="en-RSV-23305" style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">but if your eye is not sound, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!" (Mt 6:22-23)</span></span></i></p><p><span class="text Matt-6-23" style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;"><span style="font-family: verdana;">What is Jesus talking about here?</span></span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">In that time, people understood the eye to be both the organ and the process of understanding what is seen. They did not think that understanding occurred separate from the sensory organs. Rather, the senses acted through the organs themselves, and the organs brought meaning to what the senses perceived in the world.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">Therefore, the condition of the eye naturally effected the entirety of perception. If one's physical perceptions are distorted, the one's entire reality is adversely impacted.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">It is pretty easy to see how something like clinical depression fits into this. It isn't unscientific as it is just a different way of expressing what science rediscovered.</span></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555487744976580528.post-51353627365370018782022-05-10T06:45:00.001-07:002022-05-10T06:45:23.206-07:00How do you feel?<p> "How are you feeling?"</p><p>That can be a tricky question. Sometimes we use that line of inquiry to explore emotions, and at other times thoughts.</p><p>Are they all that different? Emotions are clearly felt in the body, which is why we call them 'feelings'. Yet, most of our thoughts also have a corresponding physical reaction.</p><p>While we like to think of our intellectual faculties as distinct from our emotional ones, the truth is that they are all interconnected. Perhaps we would like to believe that thought is 'immaterial' or 'non-physical,' but the truth is that our physical disposition directly effects our thoughts.</p><p>We can observe that a headache can negatively alter our thought processes. But, what about more subtle conditions of the body that we aren't even paying attention to?</p><p>Someone who feels depressed will have depressive thoughts.</p><p>The path of recovery begins when we acknowledge not only the power of our physical experience of our feelings to derail us from what is good, but also that these feelings are just that... they are experiences that are not necessarily attached to reality. </p><p>You can be depressed without having any reason to be.</p><p>If we accept the notion that our feelings are not consistently reliable measures of reality, we can be freed from their tyranny. We don't have to believe them. We can reject their demands.</p><p>An emotion is a decision to act, which is why we have the physical experience of emotion generally after a thought. But, if you stop to observe the feeling more closely, you can prevent yourself from jumping off the cliff that the feeling demands you do to make it 'feel better.'</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555487744976580528.post-28589763335512926282022-05-01T17:54:00.001-07:002022-05-01T17:54:07.950-07:00The Problem of the Senses<p>If you read enough Orthodox monastic writings (often lumped into the general category of 'Patristics', which includes theology, philosophy, law...), you tend to get the idea that the serious Christian is fighting two battles in his inner 'battlefield'.</p><p>Indeed, the battle is an interior one. We aren't really fighting with the devil or other people, though it often feels that way. Relationships represent 60%-75% of the typical confession. Not that I'm taking notes...</p><p>But, honestly, our fight over sinful or 'bad' actions begins with what goes in within our consciousness. It is deep within ourselves that the struggle takes place between the 'higher' aspirations of the heart and its cruder appetites.</p><p>This battle over which side will dictate the actions of the person goes on in each of us.</p><p>On the one hand, the battle is one of thoughts. We have memories, ideas, visions of what we can accomplish. On the other hand, we have yearning desires for sensory experiences and sated appetites.</p><p>While we discuss thoughts a great deal, we often don't give sensory experiences their due. And, that's a major oversight when considering that most addicts get addicted in order to have a sensory experience. While the addict will often settle for 'numb,' that numbness is preceded by a 'euphoria.' And, where that euphoria is generated is important when discussing recovery, especially when trying to break the cycle of suffering and running away from suffering.</p><p>But, I think there is more to the matter. I think that there is room to make the argument that each of us experiences our physical world in a unique way. For example, I like blue but you like red. I like salty, but you like sweet. People have sensory preferences that point to differing experiences. My theory is that the differences in physical experiences lead to, in many cases, the conditions which lead to addiction. Our physical experience of fear can either lead us to becoming psychopaths (too little) or shut-ins (too intense).</p><p>The addict often reports being 'sensitive'. I think this is something worth exploring.</p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555487744976580528.post-60159011587804966632022-04-27T04:51:00.004-07:002022-04-27T04:51:40.413-07:00How does recovery work?<p><span style="font-family: verdana;">Christ is Risen!</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">It has been a busy last few weeks, but well worth the wait.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">So, I'm going to jump right into the question: what is addiction?</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">Is it a mental disorder? A moral failing? Those two are the most common categories used in the last few centuries to classify addiction. The problem is that the tools available in these fields are generally ineffective in helping the addict to recover. Psychology and moral teachings can have some positive effects, but generally not enough to make a huge difference in addiction. Most addicts continue to die even with all the religious or psychological encouragement to get sober.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">So, what does that leave? In the 12-Step concept, a spiritual solution is offered, but there isn't really a very clean understanding of 'how' it works beyond describing the phenomenon of people working the steps and somehow 'magically' getting sober. If God is working on us, what exactly is he fixing?</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">Think about it for a moment. There may be a 'spiritual awakening,' but how does that effect one's decision-making processes, particularly since the addict knows that thoughts alone cannot save the addict from the addiction. Were that true, psychology would work. But, it doesn't.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">As I see it, the problem is a fundamental one of not understanding how humans make decisions and even how human consciousness works. We once did understand human consciousness in a way that, in fact, prevented addiction from taking hold. But, as we abandoned ancient wisdom and chased after psychology as the solution to all suffering, we lost out on the key to comprehending human awareness.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">So, let's stop and use some reason. Let's assume that the 12-Step concept is true (but its explanations are incomplete). So, God does something to the addict, and the addict breaks the cycle of bad decisions. Where would God place the 'fix'?</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">If you follow the concept of human consciousness found roughed out in Genesis and later with the Greeks, human appetites rise up from within, and thus the senses are used to find the 'solution' to the appetite.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;"><i><span class="text Matt-6-22" style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">“The eye is the lamp of the body. So, if your eye is sound, your whole body will be full of light;</span><span class="text Matt-6-23" id="en-RSV-23305" style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;"><span class="versenum" style="display: inline; font-size: 1.2rem; font-weight: 700; line-height: normal; position: relative; top: auto; vertical-align: text-top;"> </span>but if your eye is not sound, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light in you is darkness, how great is the darkness! (Mt 6:22-23)</span></i></span></p><p><i><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">"Your </span><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">eye</span><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;"> is the lamp of your body; when your </span><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">eye</span><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;"> is sound, your whole body is full of light; but when it is not sound, your body is full of </span><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">darkness</span><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">." (Lk 11:34)</span></span></i></p><p><i><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">The wise man has his </span><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">eye</span><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">s in his head, but the fool walks in </span><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">darkness</span><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">; (Ec 2:14)</span></span></i></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span class="text Matt-6-23" style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">Judgement is vision, both what we see and how what we see. This means that our physical perceptions are key to recovery. How you see determines what you will do. And, while sight and taste along with the other senses are important (think about the physical experience of the addict when he takes a drink), it has much to do with 'sight' both in terms of overall intellectual perception as it does the physical one.</span></span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span class="text Matt-6-23" style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">Are you aware of how your body truly 'feels'? Are you aware of all your stress you are carrying around? Do you 'see' threats in other people around you?</span></span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span class="text Matt-6-23" style="background-color: white;">The 12-Step group acts as 'eyes to the blind' because the addict learns, with Divine assistance, to not trust what he sees. Some of this is thought, but a great deal of it is feeling. When anger or fear </span></span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana;">arise</span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana;"> (which are thoughts but have enormous physical</span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana;"> components), the addict learns not to trust either the 'reasons' or the 'feelings.'</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana;">Recovery is about correcting one's sensory experience of the world. If one learns not to trust one's feelings, then one has a shot at recover.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;"><i><span class="text Matt-6-23" style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;"><br /></span></i></span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555487744976580528.post-90821977932813766242022-04-22T16:07:00.004-07:002022-04-22T16:07:50.443-07:00What's been going on the last seven years<p> So, my life has been 'topsy-turvy' the last few years. New assignment to a mission, and with that moving house and several secular jobs. Working full time, keeping a small mission afloat during COVID, a fixer-upper house... and questions.</p><p>I'd been asking myself a lot of questions about the fundamentals of addiction. I wasn't happy with the answers, or perhaps the lack of answers.</p><p>The problem I was struggling with is the "ping pong ball" I see in modern alcoholism and addiction treatment. It goes something like this: when an addict sees he has a problem, he goes to a psychology expert, who sends him to a 'treatment program, which sends him to a 12-Step group, but he still ends up back in the office, and then back to the group, and so on. Back and forth. meanwhile, the rates of recovery are still abysmal.</p><p>In America, addiction treatment is a big business. Between court referrals and even just social expectations, American addicts go 'back and forth' without really the overall addiction problem in America getting any better. In fact, I'd say we now have more addicts than we ever had, just spread along a wider spectrum of addictions.</p><p>It seemed to me that lots of people are getting paid salaries to do nothing other than assuage the guilt of the 'unafflicted'. Addict develops, it worsens, and few find a way out.</p><p>Perhaps it shouldn't bother me, but it does. I watch people go in and out of treatment, able to regurgitate all kinds of platitudes about recovery... only to relapse.</p><p>The other thing I really struggled with was the inquiries about sexual addictions. I read and read about pornography and its effects on the brain, but also couldn't square it with what I was hearing both from counselors and addicts. Nothing was adding up. I hit a wall. And, so I gave up on posting here, figuring there was nothing more I could say.</p><p>Then, all this changed a few years ago when I began to consider a new angle... a <i>traditional</i> angle.</p><p>What if the problem is with how we understand human consciousness? I began to think of addiction not as a thought problem, but a <i>sensory </i>one.</p><p>Eventually, the ideas have come together, and I now plan to gradually roll them out here.</p><p>Here's an example specific to sex, but you will be able to see how this can work back into most addictions: <a href="https://www.patristicfaith.com/orthodox-christianity/orthodox-christian-theology/sexual-appetite-in-historical-christianity/">https://www.patristicfaith.com/orthodox-christianity/orthodox-christian-theology/sexual-appetite-in-historical-christianity/</a></p><p>In the meantime, stay tuned as I try to bring readers up-to-date with where I believe the discussion about addiction should be heading.</p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555487744976580528.post-64258063968302582042022-04-20T21:25:00.002-07:002022-04-20T21:25:43.483-07:00A New Beginning...<p> After almost seven years, I think I'm ready to come back with some new stuff. Stay tuned...</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555487744976580528.post-66006200545170294542015-10-22T12:20:00.001-07:002015-10-22T12:20:17.282-07:00Cheese and Addiction<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Here's an example of inroads into the sensory process, this time the Yale University study entitled <i><a href="http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4334652/">Which Foods May Be Addictive? The Roles of Processing, Fat Content, and Glycemic Load</a>.</i></span></div>
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With all of the luxuries we have, we are still stressed out, <a href="http://www.telegraph.co.uk/technology/news/11898234/Are-we-facing-a-data-overload.html">as this article points out</a>. We are overloaded with information.</div>
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Think about it: the average fifth grader has more scientific knowledge than Isaac Newton or even Louis Pasteur. If you could send that child back in time, he would be teaching college at the doctorate level based on his rather limited understanding of today's world and his school curriculum for that age.</div>
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It used to be thought that college students drank because they were away from their parents. While that's a contributing factor, I think the real appeal of it is far more practical: you need to be able to shut your head off once in a while, and alcohol is a great way to do that when you have not been trained to do it otherwise.</div>
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We don't teach people how to manage their minds and their racing thoughts. Thinking is encouraged, but like an engine that constantly revvs up, eventually it burns out. The child prodigy who gets his doctorate at 14... where is he when he's 40? Most don't learn <a href="https://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/200511/why-prodigies-fail">how to succeed</a>. That's left to lesser minds.</div>
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Meanwhile, we are finding that young people have a harder and harder time <a href="https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/freedom-learn/201509/declining-student-resilience-serious-problem-colleges">coping with the pressures </a>of the 'know everything' culture. They have become emotionally fragile, in large part because the new parents 'shield' their children from negative feedback in the hopes that they will absorb more data.</div>
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Suddenly, that 'bong,' filled with either beer or cannabis smoke, becomes one of the few escapes from the stresses of the Unknown and the minor failures of the day. For some, it is the only escape. Porn does much the same thing without many of the nasty side effects of a night on the town. </div>
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One of the first things that converts struggle with in Orthodox Christianity is the vast aras of knowledge that seem 'unknowable' or 'off limits.' There are 'Mysteries,' which sound like an intriguing invitation to be defeated through better research. Of course, if there were source materials on these Mysteries, then they would not be so mysterious.</div>
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So, converts buy books and try to read, but what good does it do? Many of them burn out after only a few years in the Church because they keep getting a 'denial of service' when they seek to know what they have already been told is unknowable.</div>
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The lack of clarity on so many things in the Church drives converts crazy. They can't just be in the Church... they have to think about it and understand it. All of it. This, of course, is the real problem. They discover they can't know it all, and that becomes a 'failure' of sorts. They fail to understand, and thus they also be to be 'part of' of the Church from their perspective.</div>
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Sobriety is largely about acknowledging that you don't know everything, nor is it even to be expected. It is about, first and foremost, existing. We don't exist very well these days. Think, yes. Exist, not so much. Existence is almost accidental.</div>
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The addict knows that too much thinking is as dangerous as too little or none at all. By learning to accept the Mystery of Life, one's need to over-think decreases. We don't need to use to slow down the whirling thoughts in our minds.</div>
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If we are going to preach the Gospel in this new era, the first thing we will have to do is preach against over-thinking and the dangers of Information Overload.</div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">To be honest, I'm overwhelmed with lots of small things that add up to one big thing... I call it the 'Blob.' It's just a big blob of half-completed tasks, partly from my own sloth and partly from the broken promises of others. Oh, well... life is never easy.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">What I have been thinking about lately is how we have taken a culture of unbounded criticism and created an environment where people have begun to embrace all that is negative.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">It used to be that criticism was always done in the face of self-confidence, like a counter-weight to pride and vanity. But, what happens when the pride is gone? All that is left is the barrage of complaint and fault-finding.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">This is what you get in religion, where people are constantly complaining about the world or humanity or religion itself. Then, when the criticism 'wins' the debate, it refuses to stop. It just keeps coming, and soon it destroys what it once sought to correct.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">There are people who are not able to handle both value and criticism. They want it 'all-or-nothing.' Outsiders here the criticism of Western culture from Westerners and believe the bad is the totality... and then you end up with radicalism and ISIS/Daesh/Al Qaeda.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">When everything is bad, we end up prisoners of rage and depression. That's why those movements eventually become rape-factories and <a href="http://apnews.myway.com/article/20150619/ml--inside_the_caliphate-nation_of_fear-bef304e4b4.html">feeding frenzies of oppression</a>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I'm talking politics, but I am also talking daily life. When you teach kids that their societies are nothing but 'evil' and you make 'good' so totally abstract that they can never really experience it, get ready for substance abuse and other forms of 'escape.'</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">The phenomenon sweeping the world right now is dissatisfaction, one that has come with the 'Critical Theory' movement. Everything is endlessly analyzed, and examined, and critiqued... often without the benefit of the 'whole picture.'</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">So, we end up fretting endlessly about food ingredients and how everything causes cancer... and forget that humans are living longer than they ever have. In fact, some say we now have too many of them, but then we run around and save them from diseases and famine.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">We have seen studies that</span> have also shown us that gay parents are actually better than heterosexual ones. Yes, it seems that liberation from 'traditional morality' and the confines of religion are absolutely wondrous!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Well, that's until you look at the details, and by that I mean the ones all around you. The ones you are not supposed to talk about.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">You know, like the record levels of divorce. Must be fun times, eh? How about use of psychiatric medications and treatment? Addiction, a favorite of this blog, seems to be blooming... can we blame religion for that?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">There are other studies that indicate the opposite: religious families tend to have lower levels of social problems than children raised without a serious religious practice at home. While kids in the typical parish do have problems, as a former substitute teacher, I can say I'd prefer to be in a Sunday School classroom than a secular one any day of the week.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">What they are looking for is how the kids answer the questions posed to them, hence the 'attitudes' they are measuring. They are not really examining the things kids won't say in an interview, nor are they looking at the plain evidence around us.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Secularism demands obedience just as much as religion does. Certainly, Orthodox Christianity does have a whole list of 'freedoms' one gives up to follow Christ. There is a difference in emphases, and on the whole a secular interviewer will find far more positive answers from a secular-minded child than a religious one who has not been raised with the vocabulary of the Secular Elite.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;"><em>For secular people, morality is predicated on one simple principle: empathetic reciprocity, widely known as the Golden Rule. Treating other people as you would like to be treated. It is an ancient, universal ethical imperative. And it requires no supernatural beliefs. As one atheist mom who wanted to be identified only as Debbie told me: “The way we teach them what is right and what is wrong is by trying to instill a sense of empathy ... how other people feel. You know, just trying to give them that sense of what it's like to be on the other end of their actions. And I don't see any need for God in that. ... </em></span></div>
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There's the logical weakness, for which the seculars have no answer except the brute force of handcuffs and prison bars, which is also a contributing factor in why we have so many people in prison. Secularism in schools has weakened the religious side of culture, and brought forth a generation of weakened religious people. Prisons are filled with failed religious practices and failed religious people. </div>
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You don't find that in secularism the same way. Yes, secularism demands 'sacrifice,' but it does not demand love for one's enemies. To test this, just ask a secularist to love a 'racist' or a 'religious homophobe.' After you scrape the secularist off of the ceiling, you will get the picture.<br />
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Yes, all success stories... up until you read the news. Birthrates among these wonderful secular nations are plummeting. People are lonely and depressed. Suicide is high, and that evil 'racism' that secular people here in the US are concerned about is woven into the very fabric of their cultures (follow the ethnic riots and tensions in Europe).<br />
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The only way this article makes any sense is if you just obey the secular <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Party_line_(politics)">Party Line</a>. Obey, don't question. Religion is bad, period. We are better for not believing. Question them, not us, because we are smarter and better.<br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">So, I'm listening to people who are 'in' the treatment world, and most will tell you the bigger challenge is getting the newly-sober through the first year without a relapse. It means teaching new life skills and getting through mankind's oldest enemy (even older than the devil)... time.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Sober living houses are not treatment, but a place to start living a sober life. Wouldn't it be great to have a sober living house that is Orthodox based? There would be access to Orthodox chaplains, prayer service, education... a place where one can get a spiritual and religious boost in addition to having a supportive, drug/alcohol-free environment?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Well, it has been a long time since I posted here. Judging from the occasional emails that come in or the comments that aren't spam (oh, boy, there are a lot of spammers out there), people are still reading the >4 years worth of almost-daily posts.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Sure, the recovery rate in AA is low... because the meetings are open and most people take years to get to a point of willingness. AA is meant for the 'hopeless alcoholic,' not the newbie abuser with plenty of spunk and lots of ambition. Read <a href="http://www.dickb.com/index.html">the histories written by Dick B.</a> and you will see that AA has changed dramatically in that respect.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The hyper-sexualization of the modern Materialistic Consumerism has caused us to be alienated from one another. Here's a look into this problem:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">People these days are lonely. The drive for online friendships is an easy way out, but it really never sates the thirst we have for real friendships and associations.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Think about it: children need a mother and father, but after the divorce, they are forced to accept and then reject their parents' various sexual partners. Marriage has become about sexual union rather than family-building. We tempt our children into early 'dating' long before they are ready to marry, then gnash our teeth when they abuse their freedom and have sex, which we encourage by supporting sexualized advertising aimed at them.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">We are sex-obsessed, which is why our news outlets sprinkle a heavy dose of 'entertainment news' in with the hard stuff, knowing we are more interested in some young tarts cleavage more than we are in the spread of Ebola. After all, Ebola does not generally effect Wifi access, does it?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sure, we have the iPhone#, with all the attendant apps and access to our electronic needful-things, but what about real people? Most of us have much fewer of those around these days. We used to have clubs and fellowships and teams... they are dying out as people sit at home and bask in the eerie light of a LCD screen.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When we make the effort to meet others, it is often with that overwhelming desire, enforced by media messages, to have intercourse. Like a prisoner first released for a long sentence, everything seems to stimulate us. perhaps we've been watching millions of images of these things, and thus we are now 'primed' to go to work.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But, we know it is wrong, and so we stuff our stimulus down and thus begin the awkward fumbling of a 'proper relationship,' all the while wondering and wondering and wondering if our stimulation and craving for human intimacy is sexual or not. We don't know, because we get so little of the real thing in either way. Thus, they become confused. Sex and social intimacy blend into a single neediness.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But, failing to understand that sex and friendships are different, and that sexual intimacy and social intimacy, while sharing some traits, are not the same, we become afraid to have both because we know there is a difference but it is no longer taught to us... and the guardrails are removed.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">We encourage sodomy and so-called 'same sex attraction,' which then places the same barriers that heterosexual men and women place in their own relationships in order to prevent the blending of sex and friendship. It is awkward for a man to treat another man like a woman, but that's what happens. Or, rather, he may treat himself like the woman knowing that he really isn't, but, again, it is all confusing and therefore awkward.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Some people enjoy the confusion. Yes, there are people who thrive on it. It makes them feel alive. Most of us like things to be straight-forward. We benefit from rules and standards and clarity. In this age, the former have the edge. They are out to cause confusion. They like it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But, the rest of society pays the price for social experimentation. We become the lonely ones, earning for the joys of friendship unmuddled with sex.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Until society reaches the breaking point, we will have much more of this alienation.</span></div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555487744976580528.post-56737986975124106342014-09-23T09:03:00.002-07:002014-09-23T09:07:58.511-07:00Be Mad At God First<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For countless centuries, perhaps even from the beginning, man has often viewed the world with an 'us-versus-them' attitude. His classical approach to life is that those who are not for him are against him, and that those against him are pure evil and a dire threat.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">After all, the 'Other' takes our stuff and makes a mess we have to clean up. The 'Other' is selfish and greedy and inconsiderate. Of course, <em>we</em> are never like that. <em>We</em> are always perfect. It is the <em>Them</em> that has all the problems.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">So, when we feel threatened or imposed upon by circumstance, we turn out ire towards some other. When things get really bad for us, and we are genuinely afflicted, then our hatred of the Other becomes fully justified and we can go about hating and resenting. Our insults are true because <em>we</em> say that they are, since we have decided it is so and the Other has no truth at all.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Whole political systems, from Stone Age Tribalism to Modern Age Marxism are built on the premise that the bad guys over there, be they the fellows in the tepee on the other side of the hill or the wealthy Bourgeoisie in the manor house (these days, a McMansion is enough to get the envy of most Americans going), must be stopped because they are bad and we are good.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Race politics is another place where this is the core belief. Be angry, and remain so, because only your rage will give you the strength to fight your enemy. Kind of like this:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So, we encourage our rage for 'social change' or 'preserving our traditions' with hate and well-suckled grievances. The Other becomes, like the video suggests, the 'nail' that we have to be angry enough to hit.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">The path of Recovery requires that we drop the pretense: anger is a poison, and it is never justified. Resentments and condemnation of others is the same judgment and condemnation you will receive. Hence, the Lord's Prayer.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Most people are weaned on hatred, and it is mother's milk to them, and no matter how often they read their Bibles, they can't get over their own hatreds.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Those who afflict you... who lets them get away with it? God.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;"><em>I am the LORD, and there is no other, besides me there is no God; I gird you, though you do not know me, that men may know, from the rising of the sun and from the west, that there is none besides me; I am the LORD, and there is no other. I form light and create darkness, <strong>I make weal and create woe, I am the LORD, who do all these things.</strong> (Is 45:5-7)</em></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">God sends Israel into the hands of the Egyptians. And the Babylonians. They are afflicted by others. Who should they have been angry at... their afflicters, or the God who ordained their affliction?</span></div>
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<em><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Have you ever thought that everything that concerns you, concerns Me, also? You are precious in my eyes and I love you; for this reason, it is a special joy for Me to train you. When temptations and the opponent [the Evil One] come upon you like a river, I want you to know that This was from Me. </span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />I want you to know that your weakness has need of My strength, and your safety lies in allowing Me to protect you. I want you to know that when you are in difficult conditions, among people who do not understand you, and cast you away, This was from Me. </span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />I am your God, the circumstances of your life are in My hands; you did not end up in your position by chance; this is precisely the position I have appointed for you. Weren't you asking Me to teach you humility? And there - I placed you precisely in the "school" where they teach this lesson. Your environment, and those who are around you, are performing My will. Do you have financial difficulties and can just barely survive? Know that This was from Me. </span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />I want you to know that I dispose of your money, so take refuge in Me and depend upon Me. I want you to know that My storehouses are inexhaustible, and I am faithful in My promises. Let it never happen that they tell you in your need, "Do not believe in your Lord and God." Have you ever spent the night in suffering? Are you separated from your relatives, from those you love? I allowed this that you would turn to Me, and in Me find consolation and comfort. Did your friend or someone to whom you opened your heart, deceive you? This was from Me. </span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />I allowed this frustration to touch you so that you would learn that your best friend is the Lord. I want you to bring everything to Me and tell Me everything. Did someone slander you? Leave it to Me; be attached to Me so that you can hide from the "contradiction of the nations." I will make your righteousness shine like light and your life like midday noon. Your plans were destroyed? Your soul yielded and you are exhausted? This was from Me. </span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />You made plans and have your own goals; you brought them to Me to bless them. But I want you to leave it all to Me, to direct and guide the circumstances of your life by My hand, because you are the orphan, not the protagonist. Unexpected failures found you and despair overcame your heart, but know That this was from Me. </span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />With tiredness and anxiety I am testing how strong your faith is in My promises and your boldness in prayer for your relatives. Why is it not you who entrusted their cares to My providential love? You must leave them to the protection of My All Pure Mother. Serious illness found you, which may be healed or may be incurable, and has nailed you to your bed. This was from Me. </span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />Because I want you to know Me more deeply, through physical ailment, do not murmur against this trial I have sent you. And do not try to understand My plans for the salvation of people's souls, but unmurmuringly and humbly bow your head before My goodness. You were dreaming about doing something special for Me and, instead of doing it, you fell into a bed of pain. This was from Me. </span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />Because then you were sunk in your own works and plans and I wouldn't have been able to draw your thoughts to Me. But I want to teach you the most deep thoughts and My lessons, so that you may serve Me. I want to teach you that you are nothing without Me. Some of my best children are those who, cut off from an active life, learn to use the weapon of ceaseless prayer. You were called unexpectedly to undertake a difficult and responsible position, supported by Me. I have given you these difficulties and as the Lord God I will bless all your works, in all your paths. In everything I, your Lord, will be your guide and teacher. Remember always that every difficulty you come across, every offensive word, every slander and criticism, every obstacle to your works, which could cause frustration and disappointment, This is from Me. </span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />Know and remember always, no matter where you are, That whatsoever hurts will be dulled as soon as you learn In all things, to look at Me. Everything has been sent to you by Me, for the perfection of your soul. All these things were from Me. (</span></em><a href="http://www.johnsanidopoulos.com/2010/05/holy-and-venerable-father-seraphim-of.html"><em><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">http://www.johnsanidopoulos.com/2010/05/holy-and-venerable-father-seraphim-of.html</span></em></a><em><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">)</span></em></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Do you want to blame someone for racism, and inequality, and the burdens others unfairly place on you, and the suffering of the poor, and the inequality of the rich, and that you didn't get what you wanted... put the blame on God.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">He started it all, and He is the one who lets it happen.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Do not be a coward and blame mere mortals. God could stop them, but He does not. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">And, since you are afraid of God, it is easier to hate others than taking Him on. That's being a chicken.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">If you are angry at another person, you either don't really believe that God is in charge, or you think He is asleep and not doing His job. You may need to rouse Him with your indignation. Yes, God will surely respond if you are angry enough!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Those who can actually muster the courage to be angry at God are well on their way to recovery. After all, to be angry at Him means you really believe that He is there and that He is all-powerful. This is a stronger belief than the made who pays lip-service to God but in his heart believe that men are responsible for his suffering.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Men are tools. Reread the Old Testament. Pay attention to Deuteronomy 32. That is a warning for all of us.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Our afflictions are the path to healing. Do not resent others for doing what is in their nature to do. God will deal with them. You yourself must be healed, and God will only do that if you cooperation.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">If you must hate, then hate truly and hate God. He can handle it. Hate Him and get over it. Be honest. Sometimes we cannot avoid being angry over what has happened to us. Direct it to the One who really did it, and who also knows why it must be so and can change it from bad to good.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">However, it may be more complicated... like the chicken and the egg.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Does the predisposition to usage have a natural link to suicide? Are people using to marijuana to medicate the underlying problems which lead to suicide? Or, is it the marijuana use which is solely responsible?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The deeper question which never really gets answered is why people would 'need' to get high every day. It is the escape from 'reality' (the 'reality' of one's own mind, that is) which should be our main concern.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">We need to teach people that their memories will be there when they get back from being high. If there is a single message that we should be delivering to others, it is this. Memories are inescapable... unless you get amnesia. But then, you lose out on who you are.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I suppose we can say that we are failing to teach people who they are, largely because we can't agree on it ourselves in the age of the 'pluralistic' society. We have made everything an uncertainty.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Happiness is not an 'experience' in terms of an achievement, but rather a <em>motion</em>. In physiological terms, it is about a series of brain chemical experiences that transition us from anticipation and excitement to satisfaction and relaxation.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">This is why this article should be no surprise, though it might be for many:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The modern mind sees happiness as a achievement... a single event or experience. But, it really isn't. It is only by repeating the false image of happiness that we can ignore the truth that you don't get to happiness in a split-second. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I think advertising usually plays into this because an ad would have to be far more complex in order to express happiness in that way. Advertisers want to keep ads simple, because they know you won't spend time to get their messages.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Others do not want us to think about happiness too much because they are afraid that you might disagree with them. They want a quick agreement and not too much focus on the reality of all the potentially contradicting evidence. Most often, however, we do that to ourselves. We want something so bad because we want to be happy but we are not willing to work at it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Or, at least take the time for it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">In this day and age, we have lots more shots at being happy, or rather getting things we think will make us happy. Look at all that you have around you right now. Just think about the endless possibilities that the very computer you are using right now is offering you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">All you need is time... the one thing we seem to be running out of.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Your great-grandfather could have entertained himself with a pocket knife and a piece of wood. Now, you have a power outage and almost instantly have a panic attack. All he needed was daylight, but now look at all the things you <em>need</em>? </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">A process takes time. Take away the time, and there can be no process. But, this also eliminates the potential for real happiness.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">That's why drugs are so popular: you can get a quick fix of brain chemicals without having to work for it or spend any time really working towards happiness. The clamor for marijuana legalization in America is not about 'free choice' as much as it is a desperate cry of despair: "We don't have the time or energy to be happy, so let us smoke pot!"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">If you want to find happiness, then you have to work. You also have to be realistic: happiness is not about controlling the process as much as adapting to it. This is the second fallacy after happiness as a singular experience. Most folks think that happiness is synonymous with control.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Look at powerful people. Are they really happy? Does their control bring real joy?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Most of the super-wealthy are generally unpleasant people. In Hollywood, the old saying goes that the stars that aren't jerks are the ones that are depressed. The only happy ones you encounter are the ones that stay outside the 'game' of power and influence.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Yet, we continually fill ourselves with the notion that we have to be in control and that happiness is about actualizing our expectations rather than enjoying the mystery of surprise.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I know that, in most cases, people are deeply disappointed in meeting me. Generally speaking, I fail to live up to most people's expectations (especially my own). They think they will be 'happy' meeting me (for what reason, I have no idea), and come away with... well, I'm not exactly sure. Most folks don't call back with feedback. Sometimes I am a jerk on purpose, because I test people who seem over-confident in their 'spirituality' (I will say that I have a highly-tuned 'BS-o-meter' that has rarely failed me, though I must say that I have failed it by ignoring its results on more than one occasion).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">That's OK. I don't make myself out to be anything other than a man with a blog and a short attention span. I am not here to make anyone happy. In fact, quite the opposite: what I write here is designed to take away 'happiness'... the false kind. The cheap kind. The delusional kind.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">If you want to be happy, then let go and appreciate what God is giving you right now. Take the time and savor the experience. Stop whining about your plans. They are probably stupid anyhow (most of mine are).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Happiness is a journey. Ultimately it is a journey in God, with God, through God. Enjoy it.</span></div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555487744976580528.post-67592055151190961702014-08-25T10:28:00.002-07:002014-08-25T10:28:52.924-07:00A Battle With the Mind<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Over the last few months, I've been working through the ramifications that one of my children has <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/ADHD">ADHD</a>. Right now, he's in his room fighting some kind of battle with aliens that will go on for hours.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">His little mind races from thought to thought and image to image. He's a good lad, but most of the values of today's schools don't include his. Like his father, he's in for a long road of exile.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Many a night I have been unable to sleep because my head would not shut off.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I was always told that there had to be some deep, Freudian explanation for all those thoughts. I searched high and low. Never found it in most cases. Yes, there were times when I knew EXACTLY why I was freaking out at 3am. There were other times when I knew something was up, and eventually I learned the skill of soul-hunting. The underlying cause would be brought out and addressed.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">But, most of the time, it was just my head doing its thing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">No amount of inventorying or soul-searching or even cheap bourbon could triumph over the mind that simply won't stop.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">What makes it worse is that not only is it many times unpleasant and counter-productive, but it has been popularly demonized. Our recent flirtations with pop-Zen-Buddhism and the romantic notion of 'no mind' has made those of us that have race-car-engine imaginations feel like Cave Trolls.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I'm tired of it. I am tired of people telling me that something is wrong with me... or my son. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I can't fix him or me by 'trying harder' or saying more Jesus Prayers. As a monk, I would fail. If you want to call me a failed Christian because I can't stop my head from flitting from thought to thought (even though I desperately want it to stop), then go ahead. I've been called worse.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">No, my house isn't shaking with loud music. In fact, I don't listen to much music at all. It is too hard at times. Most of the time, it is dead silent other than the sound of power tools.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">What I have learned to do is not kick myself so hard for being distracted. It is going to happen. What I have also learned is that real peace lies beneath the thoughts and the distractions of the 'busy mind.'</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I am never going to be able to master the Philokalia's demands that I roll my thoughts up into a ball and insert them into my heart. My 'hands' aren't big enough, and I will just make more anyhow. I will never know silence until it is given to me, because there is no natural way for me to stop my head.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">It's over... I am done trying. I pray amid the chaos, and I can only trust that far below is the stillness and tranquility that I have only had momentary glimpses of. Though I want nothing more than that blessed silence, it is just one more thing that is outside of my grasp in this life.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">So, I will continue to leave around a thousand half-done projects. I will miss appointments or be late because I can't remember half the time where I am or what comes next (I am also dyslexic with numbers, and so dates and times befuddle me). With all my best efforts, I will still disappoint those with high expectations, or even moderate expectations.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I will not feel bad anymore for being a failure. It is my Cross, which means that it is also my gift.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Judging from the feedback, I think I need to clarify a bit more about what I am saying.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You can't be civilized, or spiritual, unless you first accept the notion of shame as beneficial. It is necessary, and if you ditch it, you will pay the consequences.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So, what is shame? Shame is the feeling that one has lost one's proper position in the world and broken the standards of one's relationships with others. It is more than embarrassment over a misstep, but an acknowledgement that one has fundamentally failed to be what one is called to be.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Adam and Eve sense shame when they sinned. Are you going to tell me they were too hard on themselves?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Many people these days struggle with their consciences because they know instinctively that they are called to something greater, yet the world calls them to depravity and accepting a low estate. They are told that the easy way is the best way, and that a life of pleasure is better than a life of struggle leading to accomplishment.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">They are told to ignore good and evil, and instead focus on what is desirable. Sound like Adam and Eve?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So, when they sense in the shame of their choices, they react with rage and, of course, denial. After all, who wants to admit that one played right into the hands of one's enemies?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">This is why poverty and social disorder always walk hand-in-hand with alcohol and drug abuse. It takes the edge off of that shame that modern man experiences in the wee hours of the morning when he realizes that all of his decisions have led him away from beauty and honor. The garment of his humanity is torn, and he has no needle to mend it with.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So, he drinks. Or, he smokes. Or, he shoots up.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Man oppresses man, but it requires cooperation. You can oppress a man by taking away his honor at the point of a sword, but you can also take it away from him by promising 'paradise' if he would but bend his knees.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">If you tell people that there is no shame in giving up one's dignity for the sake of pleasure, the average man will gladly do so... at first. That is, right up until he notices that he sold his birthright for a bowl of soup. Once he realizes that he has done so, he will likely drink and use... and perhaps strike out at the 'society' that took his dignity from him.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">After all, there is no shame in the poor man who has struggled his whole life yet remained honest. There is shame in the man who has kept himself poor by making bad decisions and refusing to learn from them.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">There is shame in oppressing the poor, but the blame is to be shared with those who choose to be oppressed in exchange for a life of ease.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">We cannot necessarily condemn society as if we are innocent, because we are part of society. The moment you point fingers at someone else, you are saying they are somehow different from you. Don't you realize that you and the people around you are embraced by the inseparable bonds of not only a common citizenship, but a common humanity?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">What does this mean? </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">It means that we all have to take our share of the blame, and our part of the solution. Change happens when everyone makes the decision to change themselves rather than others. Accept the shame as your own. Then ask God for help.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">A man who claims innocence is deceiving himself. Look deep within yourself and ask, "Am I really acting like a free man every day? Or, am I excusing my weaknesses by blaming others?"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Recovery means accepting the blame and the shame... and turning it over to God. It means taking our poverty, both self-imposed and the result of theft, and asking God to handle it for us. We stop looking for human will as the solution, and turn to the Creator, our Father in Heaven.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Accepting the reality of our shame is a powerfully spiritual moment. It is an essential step in the path of holiness.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When I was growing up, the emerging social narrative was that shame was bad. Sure, shame has never really been all that good, but what the 1960s brought forth was the notion that the whole idea of shame should be eliminated.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Our modern age has come to where it is now by eliminating shame. Sure, we feel shame all the time, but our society does not really impose it, particularly on our personal behavior.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For this reason, we have lost many of the guardrails that we once depended on to control our behavior when our own will alone was not sufficient to curtail our impulses. How many times have we stopped doing something simply because we would feel ashamed for having to explain our actions to a loved one, or even a father confessor?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Shame can stop us from doing things without actually having to wear its horrid mantle. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Adam and Eve did not have the prior experience of shame, which might have prevented them from eating the fruit, but then again, you can't get to that place of understanding shame unless you first taste it. Our negative experiences growing up are supposed to shame us in small ways so that we are ready to avoid the larger shames.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But now, we are told there is no shame, and so people act out in ways that are simply stupid. Five decades ago, a 'gangster' wore a fancy suit and tried to look 'respectable' while knowing that his ways of getting money were shameful. Now, gang members dress like clowns, and celebrate their ignorance in music that kids gobble up with abandon.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Our children have lost their shame, and take nude pictures of themselves to send to their 'mates.' Only later does the innate sense of shame come up, even after the 'liberated society' has told them that all sexual impulses must be immediately acted on. As a result, we have kids that are emotional wrecks, and need marijuana and alcohol to cope.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Hence we have the 'party culture' of colleges and the drum-beat of marijuana legalization. Being intoxicated has also lost its shame, and with it the safeguards against addiction have been ripped away. Let's not forget something: alcoholism and the social acceptability of public drunkenness are linked. Countries with tolerance for public intoxication tend to have more heavy drinkers, and thus more alcoholics.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But, the loss of shame also drives man to countless other sins.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The point I am driving at is that we all need to regrow a sense of shame. The survival of society, and our own sanity, depends upon our ability to readily acknowledge that our actions are or are not shameful, and then act accordingly. Because, I will tell you this: no amount of social pep talks about being 'freed' from the constraints of traditional morality is enough to overcome the inner voice that tells us that what we are doing is wrong.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Right and wrong, good and evil... these are things deeply coded within our spirit.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sure, you can come up with some tribe in the middle of jungle-nowhere that does all the things you want to do... but are you will to go live in their thatched-hut village to see how they deal with that reality? No, you won't because you know that you really don't want the whole context.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">All societies have their shortcomings, and thus their own shames that the 'medicate' by compensating in some other way. Our temptation is to avoid change by compensating somehow, usually by overacting in some other 'virtue.'</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sobriety is about coming to grips with our own shame, not trying to deny it. We all have things to be ashamed of, and what we ought to do is bear those shames with humility rather than indulging our egos by denying the shame is there.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Once we embrace our shame, then we are no longer dominated by it. We know that we are not perfect and have failed to live up to what is good. When it is no longer denied, then we can accept the price of our shame and move forward from it. We can repent, and then begin to be healed.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It is not an overnight process, but as with most shames, the power of it wears off over time. For example, how many people will look at an old prisoner serving a sentence for a murder in his youth and say, "Well, he has done his time." When the blood was still wet, you would not have had such sentiments. You certainly would not think this way if he continued to murder and assault people in prison. But, if he repented, you be more likely to forgive him his shameful state of being a murderer. The label does not go away, but the path of repentance can change weight of it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I think we all have (those of us here reading a 'blog' on the internet, that is), at one point or another, gotten into heated exchange with someone on the internet. Recently, I got involved in a discussion, and it became pretty obvious that the participants were more into indulging their feelings than actually engaging the issue at hand.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Having better things to do than tilting windmills, I left the thread. I have had to teach myself to walk away from fruitless activities despite whatever my feelings tell me. Sure, I <em>know</em> I could win (ah, the simply joys of over-self-confidence), but why expend the energy? </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Why do we argue and fight over politics and social matters? Have any of these internet debates changed anything?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">If we are arguing about changing others, then we are really barking up the wrong tree. Changing other people's minds is always a bad idea. Just in case you are wondering why I would say that, let me ask you this:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Do you like commercials? They are out there to change your mind and sell you on a product.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">You don't like them, just as much as you don't like being bossed around, particularly by someone who is annoyed with you and has a 38-foot-long list of your past sins and inadequacies. These harangues are enough to drive you to drink... or, in most cases, just dig your heels in further.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Manipulating others is always a stupid idea.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Of course, as will so much in the Post-modernist era, you can change the word 'commercial' to 'education,' and you have the latest fad in control-words. You need to be 'educated,' which means you need me to boss you around. Here, let me help you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">The principles of both Christianity and addiction recovery both rest on the simple idea that the only person I can change is myself. Even when I am being wronged, the problem starts and ends with me. After all, my misery is my misery. If I am being made miserable, who's fault is that.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Sure, you can come up with a million examples of people who cannot escape those who harm them, but the question isn't really about being harmed or not, but what you do with that harm. Does it make you better, or more broken? If you say the latter, then the spiritual path is about turning that brokenness over to God and being changed and perfected.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">You'll never achieve inner peace so long as it is dependent on other human beings. Or, even cats. It does not work that way.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">We in the Western world have 'educated' the @#$%& out of ourselves, and to what end? We are still miserable... and spoiled rotten. Worse yet, we think we are smarter than everyone else, because we have such awesome forms of manipulation, like 'marketing' and 'education.'</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I think the reason we fight so much these days is that we are so bombarded with 'marketing' and 'education' that we can barely hold onto our beliefs for a short time before someone comes and says, "Here, now it is time to believe this!"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">That's why I feel sorry for students these days, who have to go to class after class with professors who feel it is absolutely necessary that students agree with everything they believe, and either dump their own ideas or get graded down. pretty soon, all you have is either an irrational clinging to whatever ideas one has or a form of cynical relativism that makes your utterly logic-proof.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">It is like Velcro: it wears out the more you attach things and then pull them apart. If you keep bombarding people with new opinions and ideas, then pull them off and attach more, pretty soon the connection gets looser and looser. So, eventually, things just fall off... or you turn to duct tape.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I think the Screaming Mimi I encountered had a bad case of ductaepitis. What she wasn't able to process was that she will never get anywhere in life demanding other people change. So, she had to resort to schoolyard taunts and insults. I almost wanted to say, "Hey, lady, I've been called worse. Could you please work a bit harder?" But, I didn't want to further embarrass my friend for having lousy companions. That includes me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Since we no longer believe anything, we believe everything, or nothing at all. Our rage comes with our own fears that we might actually have bound ourselves up to the wrong ideas, and so we protect them with fire rather than logic.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Thus, we miss the big picture: the only thing I can change is myself.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">If I want people to treat me different, then I have to do a few things. First, I have to see what it is that people are reacting to in me, and see if I have the ability to change it. In order to do that, I have to drop my fear and anger over the other and see the world with his eyes. Sure, he may be crazy, but few people are totally mad. Ask yourself what it is that this person is reacting to. Then ask yourself it is worth holding onto it and getting static for it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I'll give you a case in point: I had a parishioner who was an ex-felon who had really turned his life around. He was on the straight-and-narrow... but the police were constantly pulling him over and harassing him.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">My advice: tuck your shirt in, grow your hair out, and stop dressing like a gang member. I told him that as long as he dressed that way, he was going to get in trouble. There wasn't anything he could do about his gang tattoos, but his appearance was under his control. We live in an era with more than just togas... he has a choice about how to dress.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">To help him out, I went with him to the police station to intercede. What happened next was astonishing: the policeman pointed out that he was, right there, wearing clothes that matched the colors of his old gang, and he was driving their 'vehicle of choice.'</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Long story short- a month went by, and he came to church with a big smile on his face... no problems with the police! Why? because he was humble enough to sell the car and change his clothes. Suddenly, the police didn't even recognize him anymore!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;"><em>God grant me the serenity <br />to accept the things I cannot change; <br />courage to change the things I can; <br />and wisdom to know the difference. </em></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;"><em>Living one day at a time; <br />Enjoying one moment at a time; <br />Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; <br />Taking, as He did, this sinful world <br />as it is, not as I would have it; <br />Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His will; <br />That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely <br />happy with Him forever in the next. </em></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I think all of us, including my friend the Screaming Mimi, would feel a lot better if we took this to heart, rather than all the anger and strife of the world.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The English-speaking world has been awash in news about the suicide death of comedian Robin Williams. It certainly is a tragedy, as are all deaths. It strikes more of us because so many people have felt affinity for the characters he portrayed over the years, particularly the one called 'Robin Williams.'</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I would post some of his stand-up where he talks about drugs and alcohol, but he uses a lot of bad language that would upset some readers, so I'll leave it to you to find them. He certainly was no advocate.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">What is clear is that he 'medicated' his suffering with alcohol and drugs like so many of us do. Just prior to his death, he made arrangements (according to one report) to return to a rehabilitation facility. What he was taking prior to his death won't be known for several weeks.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">People have been theorizing about death and suicide, or rather 'theologizing' about Mr. Williams' eternal damnation. Should he get a 'cloud' or a 'lake of fire'? Honestly, I find it all so stupid I can barely bring myself to discuss it, but I will for the saner among us. There are some who are simply too anxious to fill hell, while others deny the fact that hell exists to begin with.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Some say hell is of man's own making. This is true in more than one way. Hell is not suffering per se, but a peculiar kind. It is one of regret and sorrow and shame that cannot be quenched. Drugs and alcohol can give such a sufferer a brief respite from such suffering, but in the end he is shoved back into the furnace by sobriety and tolerance. The escape is always brief, and often with a cost.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Yet, there are those who's brains impose on them the most intolerable suffering, worse than any cancer 3rd-degree burn. They are tormented even when they have done nothing wrong. Mr. Williams travelled with the USO and offered his talents to many charities. He sought to do good, and yet the heavy burden of an organic condition left him despairing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">We know that some men are born with no conscience, and so we should be open to the idea that others are born with too much. We know now about 'Sensory Integration Disorders' that leave some people over-sensitive to physical stimulation, while others are left under-stimulated. One can't stand the touch of even the softest fabric, and the other has to run head-first into a wall to feel anything at all.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Christians have not done very well addressing the imbalance between the over-sensitive and the under-sensitive when it comes to the conscience. We don't have a handy set of fatwas from Jesus Christ specifically penalizing various sins. There are broad categories:</span></div>
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<em><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived; neither the immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor sexual perverts, nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor robbers will inherit the kingdom of God. And such were some of you. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and in the Spirit of our God. (1 Co 6:9-11)</span></em></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Does anyone claim to be above all sin, and immune to temptation? Are any of you willing to say that sin no longer tugs at your heartstrings, and that you live utterly without it?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The sad fact of the matter is that all of us, each day, commit suicide when we sin. We are busy killing ourselves in a way just as absolute as what Mr. Williams did. We murder our own selves with sinful thoughts and perverse ideas, not to mention when we act out. When we hate others and condemn them, what does God say about those who condemn?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">"Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and the measure you give will be the measure you get. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, `Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye." (Mt 7:1-5)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Can any of us stand above our brethren? It sure seems like it these days. 'No, I would never do that!' says the man who has not been tested.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">If you have not been pushed by life to the very edge, if you have not experienced that horrendous weight of the conscience tormented, then you hardly can say that you would not do what Mr. Williams has done. This is why people who survive real torture and imprisonment are almost always the most merciful. They know that something else, rather than the 'self-will,' kept them from going over the edge.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For too many so-called 'Christians,' all they offer is self-will. They are also mostly decadent and untested. Almost none of them have had in life anything worse than a fender-bender accident or a C+ on a term paper or a terminally-ill grandparent. They exude the self-confidence of a third-grader while walking around in adult's body. It is disgusting in its own way, just as much as the disease-wracked crack-whore or the underwear-lounging, basement-dwelling gamer.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I liken this misplaced confidence to a college freshman who decides he's going to lecture a Iraq/Afghanistan vet on combat... based on his extensive experience with "Call of Duty: Advanced Warfare." If you have not experienced the real thing, then you shut up and listen.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It is perverse to boil all of Christian theology down to the force of self-will, just as it is perverse to say that Mr. Williams committed suicide any more than any of us do each day. We are all dying. Our sins are killing us... just a bit slower than the belt around Mr. Williams' neck. We pace ourselves, and thus grant ourselves the indulgence of denial.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">We are eating ourselves to death, and mating ourselves to death, and drinking ourselves to death, and medicating ourselves to death... because to not feel is to die. We suffer and so we avoid suffering rather than taking on what is killing us.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">If Mr. Williams has no excuse, then neither do we. If he has no hope of God's mercy, than neither should we. How can we expect pardon for our own self-murder when we refuse to believe that God will have compassion on Mr. Williams?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I would say that we who are not merciful are in worse trouble. We are already dead. That's why our consciences no longer bother us enough to look at Mr. Williams and see someone not unlike us.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So after reading this article, one question comes to mind: why would a college care about the sex lives (successful or otherwise) of it's students?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Well, I have a hunch that it may have something to do with what we call a 'guilty conscience.' After all, it was the college crowd of the previous centuries (19th and 20th to be specific) who worked overtime to break down traditional morality and undermine spirituality.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It will become harder and harder to preach the message of 'free' sexuality when the students realize at such an early stage in their indoctrination that the addictions they are being encouraged in are actually killing them. Yes, pornography kills. It murders one's sexuality, and it destroys the soul. Ask those lust addicts in recovery, and they will tell you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">College professors and academics now know the full power of pornography. Are they coming out against it? Are they decrying its power and utter lack of social and aesthetical value? Nope. They are silent at best, and defending it at worst.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Watch what happens: they will 'treat' the dysfunctionality, but to what end? To help the students reserve their sexual activity for marriage, perhaps even to marry while in school and begin forming families?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">To what end is this treatment? So they can masturbate some more? So they can have more of the same casual sex that the pornography they watch so profoundly advocates? It seems to me that the treatment they will likely receive might be useful for everyone, but watch what happens. Abstinence will be the alternative for 'sick people.'</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">We are seeing more and more of this: addiction and dysfunction are being treated as 'hiccups' in what is otherwise a 'good' society. Abuse is good, so long as you can 'handle it.' Abstinence is the shame of the weak. What they are shooting for is a 'moderate abuse.' </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">We are not having children, and have to import them (read immigrants) from parts of the world where reproduction is still valued (i.e. places where the internet has not yet reached). Already, even Latin America's population is starting to slow down and even drop. By the time Sub-Saharan Africa is 'wired,' there may no longer be a Europe</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I've come to the conclusion that our addiction problem is more than just a matter of a statistically constant effect linked to DNA and the normal odd of having a bad reaction to a lousy life. It is about a greater breakdown, a more far-reaching phenomenon where people are being pushed at greater and greater numbers to medicate their suffering because the system is destroying them.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">While we make greater gains in understanding the problem each day, the number of people medicating themselves with substances and behaviors continues to grow. The symptom is no longer the drunk in the road, but the broken families and dependence on materialism that we need to keep our sanity.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">We are surrounded by stuff at levels our ancestors never dreamed of... and we still need pills to sleep and other pills to keep us from slitting our wrists.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">The ship is sinking, and we are upholstering the deck chairs.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Yes, many of you do. I have not posted in nearly a month, and yet the daily stats have not changed much. As a friend pointed out, it has given him a chance to browse through four years of previous posts.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am glad that some have had a chance to go back through the archives, because I have been pretty active. Sure, a good portion of it is a response to other people's news stories and opinions, but I have put a lot of 'original material' here. There came a point where I said, "Wow, I think I've said it all."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">A month ago, I felt that way, in terms of the things that I could express. There is a lot that I am still trying to figure out how to say. In the last year, I feel like I am chasing a beast down a dark alley and I can't quite grasp its tail. The scary part is that I can't see its face, so I have no idea whether it has teeth or not. Not sure if it is an herbivore or a carnivore. Or a priestavore. yes, I made that one up.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Since the beginning of 2014, I have not only acquired a rather painful physical condition (after surmounting several others in recent years), but I have also been trying to deal with my son's own 'learning peculiarities.' I'm giving him some of the same problems I gave my parents, and yet he has his own unique issues.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It has forced me to come to grips with some of my old 'demons,' the ones that have complicated my life and often sabotaged my victories. I have always pressed the 'Self-Destruct' button just when things were going the right way.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Only now is some of it becoming clear. Only in the last month have I come to grips with one of my big problems: dyslexia. I can moderately read (I usually figure books out before finishing them, thus I get bored with reading unless it is really good stuff), but my big hang up is numbers. I mangle dates, times, prices, measurements... and I have always thought of myself as stupid as a result.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">That view has shaped many of my life decisions. After all, such a problem is magnified when you go to college and are expected to pass math exams. I went to Los Angeles Unified School District, and it was never demanded of me to pass any math. I never completed Algebra. Funny thing: I got a pretty good score on the Math section of the SAT (which should tell you a lot about the SAT).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">What is happening now is that I am reading up on sensory integration disorders, critical incident stress management (I'll talk more about this later, but I've had an interest in </span><a href="http://www.icisf.org/"><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">this area</span></a><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> since seminary), combat PTSD, the Philokalia, and addiction news. My head is spinning.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Someone accused me of having </span><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/ADHD#Adults_2"><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">ADHD</span></a><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">. I asked those attending one of my classes (they have known me for years) if they thought it was true, and I was heartbroken to see them all nodding. Perhaps this is why I read four books at a time and have a dozen half-completed projects around my house. Now, I guess I will have to talk to someone about that, too.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The difference now is that I have come to accept that I will be this way for the rest of my life. There will be a lot of things that I will never do. I also realize that in a Church where people expect clergy to be peaceful and quiet, I will always be the odd-man-out. This is what I have already experienced anyhow. There's nothing I can do about it other than not be angry that my brethren don't 'click' with me. I'm certain I am returning the favor.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I apologize for writing about myself, but I'm the big reason I have not written here, and I am also the reason I have written here before. Like you, I am seeking answers. I am searching for something. I am chasing an unknown beast. I am chasing myself.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">In the midst of all the rancor, there is something to be found. I am know that I seek God, but I am also seeking that which keeps me apart from Him. He has not gone anywhere, but I sure have. Something dragged me away. Now I am chasing it. My only hope is that chasing the beast will lead me to God.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">That's what I am betting on. That, and the hope that if not, He will come get me when my legs get tired.</span></div>
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